Humbled
I have been humbled by a lot of things recently. And as always, I needed it. I have been pretty high on coming down to San Diego in hopes that I could find a job quickly and a place to live. With my wedding coming up in less than five weeks, these were all good things.
Unfortunately, the economy has thus far proved tougher than I expected. As a man, I feel the need to provide deep down inside of my loins. I think it is something that is inherent in every male that they feel the need to provide and generate some sort of income (aka win bread). I think this is true whether or not we have a family to provide for.
Therefore, as I look forward to getting married in 34 days, I feel the need deeper than ever before. As I moved down here to San Diego, I thought I would have more control over my destiny. But with day passing rapidly by with no job, I feel more and more helpless. The economy has vacuumed the jobs out of this country.
I have been humbled. But alas, I will move forward. I will pick myself up and keep walking. Its like Abraham Lincoln said, “I walk slowly, but I never walk backward.” Or Robert Frost put it a different way, “In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life: it goes on.” These next five weeks will go by slowly and quickly, but they will go by. After that time, I will be married, whether I have a job or not.
I could not be more thankful or blessed by my situation now, in spite of the fact that I am jobless. In the least, I am fed. In the least, I am sheltered. In the least, I am loved.
